The joint aspiration of my left pointer finger occurred approximately a week and a half ago.
Here are some pre and post pictures for you.
What my left pointer finger typically looks like:
What my left pointer finger looked like immediately post medical assault (note the red puncture marks on the left side, sexy RA nodule on the right):
Doesn’t it look so different from before? Doesn’t it look so much better?
Yes, I don’t think so either. Moving on…
And then, on Thurs (about 9 days after) something happened.
I was sitting at my computer typing when I realized that typing didn’t hurt me. Not even a little bit! I looked down…
Hello almost normal sized left pointer finger joint! How are you? I haven’t seen you in ages…like 4 years. Have you lost weight? Because I recall you looking like a sausage and now you’re rather hot dog like. You look GREAT! I am ECSTATIC to see you!
Having an almost normal sized joint in that finger is both a blessing and a burden. I’m very self conscious about how it looks when it’s so swollen so the blessing is to have it looking normalish right now. It’s a burden because at normal size, I have more of an idea of what I’m dealing with in terms of loss of use and joint destruction.
I still can’t bend it all the way.
Nor can I fully straighten it.
It just kinda hangs there, somewhat useless.
What usually feels so swollen now just feels weak.
The nodule looks like it’s gone but I can still see it when I bend the finger.
I’m not sure if it can be ‘rehabbed’ at all or not. I may not be able to straighten it because I have absolutely no muscle tone left. That I can fix. I may not be able to straighten it because I have so much joint damage. That I cannot. I think that it’s most likely the second option but when I go back to the rheumatologist in a few weeks, I plan on asking.
I’ve had a few pity parties the past few days over the thought of having that much joint damage but I guess it just is what it is. If I hadn’t had the aspiration, it would’ve continued to be swollen and it would’ve continued to erode the joint. And when the joint was so swollen, it was basically useless to me anyway. Which means I shouldn’t be upset about it but really doesn’t make it any easier to look down at it and seeing it looking almost normal yet not capable of doing what I need it to do.