I have been wanting a bike for awhile now and a friend of mine gave me this beauty for free because his wife didn’t use it. (He did ask her before he gave it to me, to be clear.)
I have had so many bike related plans for a long time. Biking the park near my house. Joining a bike group to meet new people and hopefully get better at biking. Taking it to the beach with me and riding around there. Finding something new that keeps me active but is low impact on my joints.
I’ve been so excited.
But truth be told…
I haven’t ridden a bike since middle school and relearning how to ride a bike while dealing with RA, is NOT just like riding a bike.
In fact, here’s where the bike lives right now:
Don’t judge the clutter. It’s inside because stupid people have been stealing things off patios in my neighborhood and someone recently stole a LAUNDRY basket off mine. Jokes on the thief: the laundry basket was from the dollar store. But still, the bike stays inside now. And sadly, I haven’t ridden much.
I’ve rode it in my parking lot and around the track at the school near me on weekends but I’m actually quite terrified of it now that it’s an option.
I’m afraid of falling off and hurting my wrists. It has hand brakes and when I use them, it feels like I’m going to fly over the handlebars and break my teeth. I’m afraid of biking over the speed of tortoise, especially going downhill, because I have visions of me somehow falling off and having to dig rock out of my leg. I’m afraid of….
I’m totally overthinking this, aren’t I?
I’m frustrated with myself because I don’t like operating out of a place of fear. I know this sounds silly because in the grand scheme of things it’s not a huge deal. But I was excited about it and haven’t been able to do any of the things I wanted to do because it scares me.
I try to write about overcoming the limitations of RA but it’s fair to say that sometimes it’s not that easy.
I’m going to keep trying. I have a good friend who is going to help me. I’ve found a group that teaches new riders about their bikes through a Saturday morning clinic once a month. I’m going to try that too although if it’s all children and my 37 year old self 😂😂😂
As long as we try, we grow, right?