Another gap in writing but I’ve been busy working and traveling and ‘aunting’ to this sweet peanut. A very cute and cuddly excuse for being absent, indeed!
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Just a little stream of consciousness from me as I’m sitting on a train, trying not to fall asleep, on what I’m focused on resisting, learning, struggling, supporting and changing.
Resisting: it’s my birthday in 10 days and for some reason, my birthday always gets me down. I think, for me, a birthday is a yearly reset, an assessment of what I intended to do for the 365 days that I was the age I am and unfortunately, I always dwell on what I didn’t get done vs all I did. I’ve gotten particularly tough on myself since having RA because for some stupid reason, I feel the need to be everything to all people. A standard that would be unattainable even with no chronic illness. So I will be RESISTING the urge to do this and instead focus on simply being present: enjoying the phone calls and texts I get from people who care about me and enjoying a nice dinner with dear friends.
Learning: I’ve had a bike for a little over a year now and I’ve ridden it less than 5 times. Most recently, my excuse is that it’s been hot. But for serious, the real reason is because relearning how to ride a bike is surprisingly *not* like riding a bike like everyone says. Especially with RA and the fears of getting hurt layered on. So I will be working on learning on how to really ride a bike with RA.
Struggling: Exercise and nutrition. Y’all. I’m lazy and eat like crap right now. True story: I’ve been working out twice a week with a trainer since June…and gained 5 pounds. Who does that? This girl. How? Because I get hooooongry. And I’ve never met a pizza I don’t like. So I am going to struggle with making better nutrition choices and struggle to push myself to be more active. I have better disease control and sleep when I’m better with these two things.
Supporting: I’ve been doing some research online about Harvey and recovery efforts. I’d like to find a way to support chronically awesome folks who have been affected by Harvey. I imagine that chronically ill patients have some very specific needs outside of what may be provided. Any suggestions?
Changing: Hmmm, I’m constantly changing. But the change I’m most excited about now is that we are ‘changing’ to FOOTBALL season. Go Panthers! Keep pounding!