So…how am I doing with the addition of self love vs the subtraction of undesirable behaviors???
I am a work in progress.
The laundry from last week is folded…and sitting in my living room. The cat judges. But it’s a step in the right direction?
I’ve made it home every day this week for lunch. I’ve also eaten breakfast everyday this week which means I don’t want to gnaw my arm everyday around roughly 10am. Breakfast has been eggs with salsa and wilted spinach; lunch has been baked chicken with spinach and artichokes.
Stumbling blocks: freaking football! I’m a huge Carolina Panthers fan and if we didn’t have that stupid loss to the Falcons 2 weeks ago(admittedly, we played horribly that game), we would’ve had a PERFECT season. Like 16-0. But whatever. If you’d told me even a year ago we’d be 15-1 with a first round bye and hometeam advantage in the playoffs, I would’ve laughed in your face. I realize I just almost lost a lot of non football readers. Keep reading- it’s almost over, I promise!
Also, I’m quite superstitious. We were down in the first quarter last Sunday which told me that they needed me to be wearing my special shirt and drinking a glass of wine in my usual haunt so yeah…chicken wings and wine happened.
I’m glad we have a bye week this week.
My intention, in making the best decisions for me based on loving myself and deciding things in accordance with that, was to have a clean eating, no wine January. But I realized in being fair to myself, the two items are not fair to me with regards to celebrating fun events with my friends. So I am allowed, in moderation, on days with games.
That’s fair and realistic.
In other matters, I’ve had to make a very hard decision regarding rheumatologists. I LOVE the one I see currently, but he’s an hour and a half away. While I love him and the practice, it’s getting harder and harder to make the drive there.
Want to experience hell? Drive an hour and a half first thing in the morning on an empty stomach for fasting blood work. As much I trust my care with them, it’s getting harder and harder to make appointments. So there is going to be a change soon, as much as it kills me.
It’s easier for me and my fear has always been, what happens if I need an ASAP appointment because I’m not doing well? Driving that far sick won’t happen. I’m so sad to make that change but I have good recommendations for a new practice so fingers crossed that works out.